amboneandonly

It's sad how sometimes you can do so much and feel so belittled. Like your someone's New York Deep Dish Pizza box; thrown out of a 22nd floor window hoping to hit someone's yuppie ex-wife in the head. This week has done nothing but humbled me, and put me in a mild depression.

I started off this week having to get books and homework; seeing as someone wanted me out of the state for a few days to be his other set of arms and comfort. Like always I agreed to do so (only because if I didn't; he'd surely find another way to get to me) but this time; I decided I needed to end the relationship, and rid my life of a selfish asshole. It's hard to understand the concept of why (but if you were to read previous journals you may/may not understand). So, I officially 'left his ass' and came home Friday, and well; nothing but harassment has happened since.

I mean, I'm used to being called a worthless whore than is a waste of so much potenial...

Until this morning anyways. As you may know, I got my permit weeks (Late January) back. Since I have yet to drive, because I live in Upstate New York. Near a crapload of lakes, ponds, and other things that cause lake effect storms. Mind you this winter hasn't been so bad (Thanks to YOU Global Warming *Hurrah Global Warminngggg*) But I still did not want to drive.

So, coming home from church (Mind you, I believe in the Buddhist philosphy) my dad decides to pull over and orders me to drive. So I do so (and not to brag, but I'm way better than I thought I was) But like always my dad finds error in everything. (Like...I stopped before the stop sign.) And whenever I do the tiniest error, I get belittled. Like...Full bore screaming. Not about my driving either, tha'd be too lucky..About how in other words I'm a waste.

Discuss:

Your parents.